It’s Kid Quotes Friday!!!

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Welcome to another exciting edition of Kid Quotes! I am adding a link up today. I am hoping at least one person joins it, and that maybe if you love the kid quotes – you’ll add your own or pass it on! For anyone new here, I am a social worker and I collect the random things kids say to me during the week and share them here – because they are hilaarriiioousss!! Please give ME a round of applause, because I also created a BUTTON! Please link up by grabbing to code for the button and then entering your blog post in the Link up at the bottom!

And on to the kid quotes…

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Mrs. Gilman? My Mom said she’s never taking me into the public again. What’s the public? I don’t even like the public anyway. (6 y.o.)

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Kid: Jenn, I pretty much live in a Gangsta’s Paradise.
Me: You live in…Maine.
Kid: Same difference.

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Kid: Mrs. Gilman? Why do they make ducks into tape? Isn’t that kind of mean? (5 y.o.)
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Kid: Mrs. Gilman? Do you keep a lot of thoughts in your head?
Me: Yeah. Why do you ask?
Kid: Well, you’re hair is AWFULLY curly with thoughts.  (8 y.o.)

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Me: What are you making?
Kid: A molecular structure.
Me: Oh really? What is a molecular structure?
Kid: Where moles live. DUH. (6 y.o.)

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Kid: Is that a picture of your dog?
Me: Yup, that’s Skeeter.
Kid: Oh, I could tell he was your dog. You have the same hair. (9 y.o.)

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Kid: My Mom calls my stepdad her hubby.
Me: Oh yeah?
Kid: HUBBY IS SUCH AN OLD WORD. She has to call him “beau”
Me: Well, “beau” is a way older word.
Kid: What? (12 y.o.)
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Have a wonderful, Friday everyone! 


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A Year

I remember turning 25. 
I was sitting in the parking lot of a local pizza joint.
My head in my hands.
Crying. 
The first birthday that I wouldn’t get to speak with my mother.
The first birthday my Dad completely forgot.

The first birthday I didn’t even want to acknowledge.
I didn’t know if I’d ever hear her voice again.
See her laugh.
Burst into random songs.
I remember sitting there.

Head in my hands.
Wishing more than anything in the world that she return to health.
Bargaining with a God I didn’t believe in.
Hoping against hope in a Universe that had stolen my faith.
Wishing that time would stand still and let me come to terms with reality.
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I remember turning 26. 
Flying down the interstate.
Laughing with my best friend and new boyfriend.
Strong. Invincible.
Singing to the radio.
Showing up on their doorstep, uninvited.
“SURPRISE!” we yelled as entered the house.
She laughed. She smiled.
I hugged her tightly.
“Hi, Mom. I’ve missed you. You look so healthy.” I whisper.

I send a silent thank you into the universe. 
I lock eyes with my best friend. You did this, I say to her with my eyes.

The gift of a kidney. The gift of a life.
What a difference a year makes. 
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This post is in response to GBE 2 prompt of “Time” 
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Tear by Tear

It’s hard to put yourself out there. To talk about the hard things. To acknowledge that you struggle.  But every time that I do, I am taken aback. By the support. The love. The virtual nods of sympathy and looks of understanding. The comments. The e-mails. The phone calls. The cards.

We all know sadness
And I feel your pain
Well everybody knows a little loneliness sometimes
‘Cause we’re all the same

A remarkable amount of people have reached out to me. Sharing their own stories. Of miscarriage. Of infertility. Of young stroke survivors. Of kidney disease. Of their own times surviving on ramen noodles and dreams. 

We all have sorrow
We all have shame
Everybody feels a bit of emptiness sometimes
Now what you gonna do about that

At times, I want to say NO. My experience is mine and no one could ever know what I feel. And to an extent, that’s true for all of us. We can never know other journeys the way we know our own. But we can choose isolation, or we can choose connection. We can know that although people cannot be in our shoes, they can share situations that are painfully similar. And often, they can share their stories of hope.
There’s a way to keep going
Step by step
Try to fix what’s been broken
Brick by brick
While your life will keep coming
Year after year
Drain the pain
Tear by tear
Drain away the pain
Tear by tear

I will not allow myself to be isolated. I will not allow things that have happened in my life, to determine who I am. They are no stronger than they wonderful things that counteract them. They are all only pieces and parts. I admit though, those bad things? They are compelling. Some days they force me into a corner until all I want to do is crawl underneath the covers. And then I write about it.

Take a look around you
Every face that you see
Well everybody gets a little paralyzed sometimes
The epidemic of our insanity
And there all of you are. With your own stories. With your own tears. And you lend me your strength. You lend me your smiles. You hope for me when I can no longer hope. You say prayers. You offer little pieces of sunshine that will eventually lead me out of the darkness. 
Thank you. Each and every one of you. The new, the old, those I’ve known for all my life and those I’ve met recently through this virtual journey. Thank you for a hand up when I need it, a shove when I need it, a good laugh, a kick in the pants when I need it, and love (isn’t that all we really need, after all?)

*Lyrics are “Tear by Tear” by Sister Hazel. Go here to hear the song, I love it. 

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Linked up with Shell for Pour Your Heart Out
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I Bear Witness (an exercise in personification)

It is almost like she is a little girl again, and I am her little brown bear that she takes everywhere.

It is familiar – the way her chocolate brown curls are covering my body, as she squeezes me so tight.

Tonight, tears are falling from her cheeks at an alarming rate and absorbing into my brown fur.

I don’t make a sound, but I wish with every ounce of my stuffing that I could take her pain away.  

I wonder, briefly, how  many tears have fallen onto me over the years.

She murmurs into my body. I can’t understand fully what she is saying.

I have spent most of my days lately tucked away on a shelf.

I see the sun rise and the sun set.

I watch her laugh as she spends time with friends.

I watch her schedule herself to be too many places at once, and then wonder how she is going to get it all done.

She is a beautiful young woman.

She has outgrown me.

Most days, anyways.

But today, she needs me. And I am there. As I have always been.

I absorb her tears until she cannot cry anymore, until she rests on my body.

Her head fits snugly into a mold she has created from many years using me as a pillow.

“Oh Snuggles,” she sighs.

She fingers the familiar remnants of a hole in my neck – a scar from a run-in with an overzealous dog. I remember how kindly her Grandmother had sewed it for me. She was a gentle woman.

“You always smell the same,” she says as she breathes in deeply.

I want to tell her that she does too. That I miss the days of her and I.

Even the days that she forced me to put on a bonnet and a diaper and lay in her play crib while she force fed me bottles.

She props me up, and stares into my dark eyes. Her eyes are red and puffy, her hair is a mess. She is exhausted.

She hugs me tight again, and begins to fall asleep.

Tomorrow, I will end up on the shelf again.

She will be smiling again.

But tonight? Tonight it’s me and her.

Together.

Tonight, I will make her feel safe.

Just like I’ve been doing since she was just a little girl, with her little brown bear.

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Linked up at Write on Edge 

Today’s prompt was to “This week, tell a piece of your story from the point of view of an object who bore witness.”

Write on Edge: RemembeRED
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Who Doesn’t Love A List?

Linked up with Northwest Mommy for Monday Listicles!!
10 Things I Want to Do Before I Die
–Raise a child {children}
–Travel cross country
–Get my Ph.D (remember, call me Dr. Jenn!)
–Get skin reduction surgery (one of the unmentioned & unfortunate parts of major weight loss)
–Become fluent in Spanish and American Sign Language
–Become fluent in playing piano again (why didn’t I appreciate that more in my youth?!)
–To complete the 3- Day Breast Cancer Walk
–To see an acceptable cure/fix for Kidney Disease in my lifetime that doesn’t include dialysis.
–To be a Big Sister (in the Big Sister/Big Brother program)
–To never live a day without my husband.
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Stream of Consciousness – My Brain in plain view

Do you remember those commercials? This is your brain. This is your brain on drugs. And the egg frying in the pan? I did not understand these commercials as a kid, but I used to love saying that phrase at random times throughout my early “tween” years. Anyway, I think of this because South Carolina had their primary election – and NEWT GINGRICH won it. So, obviously South Carolina is the egg in the frying pan. Just saying.

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In other news, my best friend and I INSTALLED A DOOR YESTERDAY. By ourselves. We felt bad ass, and pretty awesome. We took down my bathroom door and put in the new one. Crowbars, rusty boxcutter, ghetto hammer and all.

 Crow bar!! I took out the inside frame, she took out the outside frame. And then we high-fived. We are still girls – despite our manly tendencies.

The new door! Believe me, it’s beautiful and far more exciting because we did it ourselves!

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Let’s see, I learned a lesson about race from an eight year old I work with. Yup. He separated all of my dolls that live in the doll house in my office into three categories- White, Black, Asian. Then he proceeded to bring all the “Asian” dolls to my desk and told me they were living in Asia, stealing our jobs because they are smarter than us. The Black dolls went all together into a small plastic tub because “they are poor, and used to be slaves” and the White dolls went into the house and were lined up watching TV. All 10 of them. Glad to see racial politics are alive and well in Maine (sarcasm intended).

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We launched our first Giveaway this week, and I really hope you’ll go enter it and give these people some competition. I promise, it’s an awesome scrapbook software and you will love it. Go enter! And let any of your scrapbooking/crafty friends know about it!

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That’s it for me. I’m off to work on Monday’s blog post about how to diagnose a Blogger. Stay tuned!

Happy Sunday!

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Linked up with Fadra for Stream of Consciousness Sunday! 

#SOCsunday

This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

  • Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
  • Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
  • Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
  • Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
  • Link up your post below.
  • Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.
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Loose Morals? (By Casey)

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Welcome to another Saturday with the engineering geek!  I want to again draw your attention to/compliment my wife on the banner, which has been perfected over the week.  It took a lot of hard work with various photo-editing software and spatial configurations (well it was hard work for her…I layed on the bed and watched He-Man DVDs in my Ninja Turtle boxers).  I feel very grateful for everything she does for the blog and for letting me be a one-seventh writer on it.

And speaking of awesomeness–check out our sweet new domain name!  That was also Jenn, and she put my name first!  How lucky am I?

Also, check out my new BUTTON!  All pencil-sketchy to go with my comic book obsession interest!

I also want to apologize for the snail’s pace I’ve had in responding to comments on my posts.  I value your input and resolve to get on it a little bit quicker!

Speaking of input, today’s post shall be interactive!  I’m going to tell a tale of our lives and ask for some feedback, opinions, and maybe some guidance!  It’ll be a first for the Blogosphere (except that I’m sure it won’t be)!

For those of you that are unfamiliar with our northeastern U.S. culture, one of our two major supermarket chains in Maine is Hannaford.  Pretty much one in every town, at least until you really get into the boonies, then it’s like every other town.  And they extend into all of New England, I believe, though maybe not quite so concentrated.

Also for those of you unfamiliar, I was suckered into hired by my current employer to be the plumbing/fire protection designer that is in charge of doing supermarket projects. I’ve done probably 30-40 stores in the past 6 years. Currently, we’re doing quite a bit of Hannaford work.

So last summer I’m at the newly remodeled Dover, NH store doing my final walkthrough before the grand reopening.  We was told that this was the first store to have something new:  a sort of “grocery drive-thru” aptly called “Hannaford To Go”.   See, you order on-line and then drive to the store and they walk out a nearby door and hand you your groceries.  Nearby coolers at the front of the store keep it fresh until you arrive.  Neat, huh?

The other thing we were told is that the North Windham store would be next!  This was the Hannaford I grew up with, being from Windham.  It’s currently the second closest Hannaford to us, but it’s closest to our commute and across the street from our gym so we end up grabbing groceries there a lot.

A few months later, it was done and I tried it out.  I’ve found it to be a great service for those times that I just need to pick up a few of the usual items on the way home from work.  I get in my order in the morning, drive-up, hit a button and tell them my name, and they take my payment and put my groceries in my trunk for me!  There is a $5.00 service fee but it’s well worth it.

After doing this two or three times, I happened to be with Jenn when we were picking up our “Hannaford To Go”.  She drove up, hit the button and gave them my name.  Keep in mind that our winter in Maine has been very mild this year.  Sunny and in the 40’s has been the norm until a week or so ago.  This night happened to be cold with a very nasty cold wind.  This was the first such night the weather had been wintery when I had been at the drive-thru.   Instead of the cheery woman coming out to take our payment, we got a shivering middle-aged woman, bundled in a puffy coat and knit hat, trying her best to be cheery even though she had obviously drawn the short straw with her coworkers.  Her cheeks were all pinkish red and I admit that I started to feel a little bad for her.

She took the credit card from Jenn and double-checked her form for our order.  EVERY other time it’s “Everything’s ok!  We didn’t have to substitute anything!”  This time was “We were out of the bags of apples you randomly picked off our website and don’t really have a huge vested interest in, so instead we hand-picked you a bag of loose apples ourselves, making sure they were the same type and similar weight.  You don’t have to take them if they’re not good enough for you.”

Ok, so my description has a little bit of a “Jenn spin” on it–as soon as we accepted our substitution and the woman walked off, Jenn started judging us for being a part of this process, which she likened to slavery.  And she told me she felt like we were “weird rich people” that can’t be bothered to get out of our car and go into the store.  She was even more surprised by this whole thing when the woman wheeled out the cart and put them in the trunk for us.

She told me that this would be my job from now on, because I have loose morals.  Apparently, someone who has worked to help the poor and the homeless for many years has moral trouble having grocery slaves using Hannaford To Go.  I partially see her point on this particular outing.  I’ll also note that we were the only ones there taking advantage of this service making it more awkward.  Typically when I go there is one to three other vehicles at the drive thru.

So is using this service morally wrong?  Or was it just bad circumstances giving Jenn a bad first impression?Yes, they are getting our groceries for us, bringing them to us, putting them in the trunk for us, substituting items for us, and taking our credit card back and forth so we can just sit there.  But it’s soemthing the store is playing up right now, and there IS an extra $5 fee (which Jenn has noted the poor employee probably sees little to none of).

I will most likely keep using this service.  It may feel a little awkward one certain types of days, but oh well, I paid and I’m lazy when I can be.  Jenn will never use this service again.  What do you think?

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Kid Quote Friday!

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Welcome to the Return of Kid Quote Friday! New! Improved! With a Button! Next week there will be a link up, so if you are reading this right now and want to link up next Friday with funny things your kids say (or kids you know, kids you work with, etc) PLEASE join me!!

If you’re new here, I’m a social worker (therapist) and I work with kids. They are hilarious, and I have started sharing some of the funniest quotes. 

Now, on to the quotes!

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“Well Jenn, I’ll miss working with you. If you ever need therapy you can call me. Or Spiderman. You know, whoever is easier to reach.” (8 y.o.)

“Aren’t you kind of old to like Bruno Mars? Should you be more of a classical person?” (11 y.o.)

 “You know what’s really hard on the soul, Jenn? A bad hair day.” (8 y.o.)

Kid: So, what are you doing the rest of the day?
Me: Well, I am working with other kids.
Kid: OTHER KIDS? Like, other than me ?!!! (7 y.o. )

“Mrs. Gilman, are boys born weird?” (12 y.o.)

“You know Jenn, I could buy you a big diamond ring. We could be married and I could borrow your cookie monster gloves.” (8 y.o.)

Me: Did you stay up until midnight on New Years Eve?
Kid: Yup! Did you?
Me: Nope, I didn’t quite make it.
Kid: (gently pats my arm) That’s okay. You’re old. You need your sleep. (5 y.o.)

Kid: “Jenn, HoHo has some esssplain’ to do.”
Me: “Santa? Why? Did he forget something?”
Kid: “Yes. Why you no come to my house for Christmas? I asssked!!” (4 y.o.)

“You know Jenn, what Santa does is TECHNICALLY breaking and entering but Dad says Santa is above the law, I guess because he flies and all so he can’t be below the law!” (7 y.o.)

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Happy Friday, everyone!

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Share Your Memories

I have a confession.

Even though I am working hard to take more pictures to remember these days and moments in time, I hardly ever DO anything with them. Unless you count uploading them to Facebook (which takes FOREVER). And, it probably shouldn’t really count.

So when I was presented the opportunity to use My Memories Suite Digital Scrapbooking Software, I was so excited! Even better? I get to giveaway a FREE version of the software to one of my lovely readers (a $40 value!).


I set out to download my copy almost immediately. The download takes a little while, because it is a big piece of software. Make sure you follow directions and turn off your computer’s “sleep” and “hibernate” settings so it doesn’t mess up your download!


Since I had most recently uploaded my Christmas pictures, I decided I would use this opportunity to create a scrapbook for the holidays. 



For my first try with the scrapbook software, I used their “auto-fill” option. I will note that the time it took to upload photos was less than two minutes! I was amazed! (TAKE THAT FACEBOOK!) The program filled 12 scrapbook pages and I went through to add text, and make sure the photos were oriented correctly.


The software is extremely intuitive, even if you have  minimal experience with editing software. There are some more advanced options for you scrapbooking-ninjas, so you aren’t left out either. 

WAIT! That is not all this bad boy can do. It’s hard to see on the screenshot, but you can ADD MUSIC TO YOUR SCRAPBOOK! It’s like they knew me already. As most of you know already, I love music. I have a constant soundtrack in my head. And now? My scrapbooks can have an actual soundtrack! AMAZING! Plus, you can add video as well! 


There are an amazing number of designs to choose from, AND you can go to the website and purchase other ones as well! It’s like going to a craft store without going to a craft store! That means you can stay in your pajamas and no one will judge you!



If you’re anything like me, you are asking yourself a question right now. SO HOW DO YOU SHARE A DIGITAL SCRAPBOOK? The cool thing with this software, is that there are multiple ways to share, including a special nod to the iPeople, with a ready made way to share your scrapbook on an iPod! You can also make a DVD, a movie, or the old fashioned printing way. But how nice is it to be able to send your long-distance relatives a copy of your scrapbook? Then they have one too (without having to do all the work!) I imagine that Grandparents especially would love this feature. You can also turn your project into a calendar or a photobook right from your own scrapbook! Magical! 

Okay, now down to business, how do you get to enter the giveaway? 

1. Go to http://www.mymemories.com/, browse around and then come back and leave me a comment about your favorite digitial scrapbooking kit, or theme. If you do not leave me a comment with your favorite kit/theme, your entry will not count. Please note, your e-mail must be attached to your comment. If it is not linked via blogger, please include your e-mail in your comment.

2. For an extra entry you can “like” My Memories on Facebook and come back to tell me. You’ll be entered again!

3. Still itching for one more entry? Go ahead and “follow” them on Twitter and come back to tell me. You’ll be entered again!

That means you can get a total of three entries into this awesome drawing! 

All entries must be received by 11:59pm EST on Thursday January 26. A winner will be chosen using Random.Org on Friday January 27, because who doesn’t like good news on a Friday?

But even if you DON’T win the software, the folks at My Memories are giving you the opportunity to purchase this software, with $10 off! That means you can create scrapbooks, calendars, movies, photobooks and more for $30. It doesn’t get much better than that. Just throw the software in your virtual cart, and put in the promo code STMMMS77980.

Happy Creating, everyone!

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Disclaimer: I was asked to review the My Memory Suite Digital Scrapbooking software, in exchange for a free copy of the software and a copy to giveaway to our readers.
All opinions expressed in this post are my own. 

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Sometimes: Pour Your Heart Out

Sometimes I wake up with it in my head.

Sometimes I fall asleep thinking about it.

Sometimes my stomach aches at the thought of it.

Sometimes my heart soars with the hope that surrounds it.

Sometimes tears form where there were none.

Sometimes a lump forms in my throat at the joy of other’s news.

Sometimes I am a shell within myself.

Sometimes I am an advocate for myself, and for you, who has been where I am.

Sometimes I curse the universe.

Sometimes I have faith in the universe.

Sometimes I make up games with my husband about it, to bring humor to a painful situation.

Sometimes I’m not thinking about it at all.

Sometimes I feel strong.

Sometimes I feel broken.

Sometimes I feel like I talk about it too much.

Sometimes I feel like I don’t acknowledge it enough.

Sometimes I gather strength from friends around me.

Sometimes I can’t stand to be around others.

Conflicted but clear.

Isolated, but connected.

Infertility.

A devastating word.

But not a defining one.

Not for me.

Except it is…sometimes.

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My first linkup with Shell at Things I Can’t Say
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