If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don’t know if I believe that’s true
But I know I’m who I am today   Because I knew you…

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder 

Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good 

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You’ll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart

And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend…

Who can say if I’ve been

Changed for the better?
(I do believe I have been
Changed for the better …)

And because I knew you…
Because I knew you…

Because I knew you… I have been changed for good…

This is a hard one for me, because it involves deep analysis of my mood and a search through the library of songs I know, which I consider quite large.

One interesting thing I will note is that I’ve found in recent years that the song in my head changes automatically with my mood, and reflects it.  When I can’t get a song out of my head, I find that it’s usually because I’m stuck in a certain mood and I need to change my mood to change the song.

As of right now I have “Long Live” by Taylor Swift going through my head (don’t laugh…too hard), and I noticed that it started a few minutes ago after Jenn got home from work.  I’m pretty sure the lyrics don’t really reflect my mood, though.

Before that, I was sitting at the computer and the dogs were outside playing, leaving me in a peacful mood.  I had “The Answer” by Richie Sambora going through my head.  For those who may not be fully up on him, he’s the lead guitarist from Bon Jovi. His first of two solo albums was apparently released in 1994, and I recently downloaded it off of Amazon and fell in love with it.

The lyrics to “The Answer” don’t really reflect my mood, because I’m not entirely sure what they’re about…I think he’s intended to have a deeper meaning, which is lost on me for the time being.  But the instruments are heavy with acoustic guitar, without any drums and it’s just a very peaceful song.  I’ll add that I just love how none of his songs ever made the radio, but I get treated to treasures by the likes of Katy Perry almost every morning when I shave.

So, I guess I better find a song…Ok, to keep people slightly more up to date, tax day is coming and we got hit pretty hard by Uncle Sam.  We’ve found ways to cope by making some changes until our savings can recover, but it hasn’t necessarily been easy for the past couple of weeks.  I think obstacles like this can really show how well two people can work together, and Jenn and I continue to prove how perfect we are for each other.

Really, there’s a lot of detail I could go into here, but I’m straying from the topic so I’ll save all this for another post.  The reason I mentioned all that is because it’s been on my mind a lot lately, so to be overly dramtic I’ve chosen two Bon Jovi classics whose lyrics are somewhat accurate: “Livin’ On A Prayer” and “Someday I’ll Be Saturday Night”, although I admit to being overly dramatic in my choices.

Ok, I guess those songs are intended to reflect my life right now and not my mood, but I’ve given like four songs plus an album, and I’m really having trouble doing anything but ramble off topic.  My intent, though, since I was having trouble with the topic, was to show another little window into my mind so hopefully I’ve accomplished that and you’ve enjoyed it!

And if you’re unfamiliar with any of the songs I’ve listed, go check them out on your music webstore of choice!

AWWWWWW…. isn’t he cute? Okay, okay, so this is my husband. When he was just a little boy, yet to grow into the wonderful man who put gas in my car when it was -5 this morning and the man that just toasted me a corn muffin toasty to eat while I blog. Although, I have dated a few others before him – and it’s incredibly and shamelessly corny – he is truly my first love. Therefore, in my mind, he’s the only one worth re-hashing. The others that came before him were more like lessons. Lessons in what I didn’t want, lessons in what I couldn’t tolerate, lessons in learning not to settle. Lessons that in turn created who I am today, and made me the woman that Casey chose to marry.

There are a lot of rough things that I’ve “survived” in my relatively short 28 years in life. I have been to more funerals and spent countless hours in hospitals with various medical issues – both that of my family and myself. There have been MANY times that I have cursed the universe. But, when I take a step back, I realize how very lucky I am. Because although I have been given a lot to manage, I’ve also been given everything I need to manage it – and by that, I mean the people that surround me. Casey is one of those amazing people and I feel so blessed to call him my husband, and my very first love.

Yay, I’m first today!  My first love is Jenn, regardless of what I may have thought in the past.  This makes this particular topic hard to blog about today, since it’s kind of the theme of the blog and as such I’ve already been blogging about it quite a bit already.

I will say again that I feel that Jenn is the other half of me, and that we complete each other.  In short, we are soul mates.  I could tell you about the first time I fell in love with her, but I did that yesterday!

Unfortunately, I don’t have much else to add to this today, except for an addendum to yesterday.  Jenn reminded me this morning on our ride up to work (we got to ride up together today, yay!) that on the night I proposed, we had just spent the evening dancing the foxtrot in the kitchen to “So This Is Love”.  So, as you can see, “So This Is Love” has quite a deep meaning for us and has been a part of many major milestones in our relationship!