Thoughts

My mind is sort of a jumbled mess right now. So it’s a good thing it’s Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday, which doesn’t require me to put together sentences that might make sense. Because it’s all about being real. And right now? It’s all about jumble. So here we go, welcome to my stream of thoughts.

I had my last staff meeting today at the job that I’m leaving. In three short weeks I will officially be employed at only one agency. This has not been true in many, many years. I have had multiple jobs for a long time now, something like ten years. Because it was necessary. I was in school and things like rent needed to get paid.

And now? It’s not so necessary. So I’m cutting down to one job until we leave for North Carolina. And I’m going to have Wednesdays off. And although it is amazing, I had no idea the anxiety this would cause me. I suppose when you get so used to something (like working 14 hours days), it is a little anxiety producing when that changes, even if it’s changing for the better. So I had my last staff meeting today, at an agency that I really do love, that has taught me a lot, and one that I am sad to leave. I’m not sure where to put it, so I’m putting it here.

It is just the beginning it what will be a series of goodbyes as we begin to look at the reality of moving to North Carolina. A reality that I am so excited about, but that doesn’t mean that there aren’t things I will miss. Because there are things I will miss, and people I will miss, and this process is going to be just as hard as it is exciting. Change. Ever constant.

I went grocery shopping today. This is a feat because Casey and I are both sick, and last night we went to bed at 6pm. No joke. I’m feeling sort of better today after 12 hours of Nyquil induced sleep. But I really hate grocery shopping. However we really needed food since we were away this weekend and have none. And we had Wendy’s last night, which is never a good decision. It tastes good, but my jeans were snug this morning. Oh jeans. They are so unforgiving.