My mind is sort of a jumbled mess right now. So it’s a good thing it’s Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday, which doesn’t require me to put together sentences that might make sense. Because it’s all about being real. And right now? It’s all about jumble. So here we go, welcome to my stream of thoughts.
I had my last staff meeting today at the job that I’m leaving. In three short weeks I will officially be employed at only one agency. This has not been true in many, many years. I have had multiple jobs for a long time now, something like ten years. Because it was necessary. I was in school and things like rent needed to get paid.
And now? It’s not so necessary. So I’m cutting down to one job until we leave for North Carolina. And I’m going to have Wednesdays off. And although it is amazing, I had no idea the anxiety this would cause me. I suppose when you get so used to something (like working 14 hours days), it is a little anxiety producing when that changes, even if it’s changing for the better. So I had my last staff meeting today, at an agency that I really do love, that has taught me a lot, and one that I am sad to leave. I’m not sure where to put it, so I’m putting it here.
It is just the beginning it what will be a series of goodbyes as we begin to look at the reality of moving to North Carolina. A reality that I am so excited about, but that doesn’t mean that there aren’t things I will miss. Because there are things I will miss, and people I will miss, and this process is going to be just as hard as it is exciting. Change. Ever constant.
I went grocery shopping today. This is a feat because Casey and I are both sick, and last night we went to bed at 6pm. No joke. I’m feeling sort of better today after 12 hours of Nyquil induced sleep. But I really hate grocery shopping. However we really needed food since we were away this weekend and have none. And we had Wendy’s last night, which is never a good decision. It tastes good, but my jeans were snug this morning. Oh jeans. They are so unforgiving.
I love this look into your brain. I know how hard those goodbyes are and how you have to learn to fill the quiet. You will get there.
The one thing that I can really relate to is a change in your schedule. I worked full time (with some crazy hours & A LOT of business travel) until April 2011. My girls are turning 10 & 8 this year. I love being a SAHM with them but it is still what I call an adjustment period. I never thought it would take this long but it has and still is. The only thing…it just keeps getting better!
Change is hard, even when it's what you want. Also, I hate grocery shopping. A lot. Hang in there!
Love this post, it's great to see you using your blog as just an outlet for whatever comes to mind. Good luck on your change!
Love this post, it's great to see you using your blog as just an outlet for whatever comes to mind. Good luck on your change!
You made me smile at the Seinfeld comment!
How right you are, about "nothing" meaning "everything". I love your daily routines with Casey. It's like a love story from an old, romantic movie. So sweet.
I left a job not too long ago, and my anxiety was sooooo high. I'd been working and stressing and obsessing for years and the thought of slowing down and taking a few things off my plate scared the crap out of me. Since moving to New York, I'm basking in the glow of entry level administrative, totally low stress, minimal responsibility temporary job. My whole world is changing with each day. I always knew the stress of my old job wasn't doing me much good, but after stepping away from it, the difference has been amazing. Although it sounds like you love your job, I hope only having one job will make your life improve in more ways that you even realized possible.
Your your dog sniffing his hair is so awesome.
Cutting down to one job should eventually be much less stressful!
Where are you moving in NC?
Jenn, my grandfather who I adore unlike anything else, also waves at us until we honk the horn when we leave. I honestly think he would stand in the driveway until he couldn't see the car anymore if we forgot to honk. Love the thought process and the blog about nothing and everything.
I've long said I'm a Seinfeld blogger. Welcome. We have snax.