Dear Santa,
I know you’re not in the business of hopes and dreams.
You are more accustomed to dreams of iPads and cell phones handcrafted toys.
Children write to you with open hearts, and a believing spirit.
We craft magical tales for them during this time of year.
Many of them are not even selfish, like I am.
A couple of years ago, I helped a child write a letter to you asking for a washing machine for his Mom, because his Mom cried when hers broke.
Last year, I helped a child write a letter to you asking you to explain to his Mom how much he loves her and that he doesn’t need any toys.
How can I compete with such pure love?
I can’t.
I am selfish. And through my head? A million things I wish for. For myself. To avoid further pain for myself, and to give myself some peace of mind.
Not really things though. They are hopes. Hopes that my Mom and my husband stay healthy. Hopes that I will get to be a Mom. Hopes that I will someday learn how to feel “good enough,” (whatever that means).
Maybe I should be hoping to be more like those kids.
Unwavering faith.
Sending a letter out into the Universe, simply knowing that someone is reading it, and that is enough.
Love,
Me
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Linking up today with Mama Kat’s Writer’s Workshop
Nothing selfish about you at all. Everything you hope for so far has to do with someone else. Your husband, your mom and for a baby. God bless and Merry Christmas.
Visiting from SITS! Nice to "meet" you! Praying that all your wishes come TRUE!
What lovely letters those kids were writing, and yours is lovely too!
What an unselfish and loving child you have obviously raised! I am so impressed. Lovely letter.
Stopping by from mama Kat's.
Lovely letter!!!! ((hugs))
What wonderful letters from those kids.
Oh, how sweet, especially the kids' selfless letters. Santa needs to smarten up! (Though I do not believe smarten is really a word. Hm).
So obviously NOT selfish!!! I wish all of those things for you as well, let's hope Santa can deliver 🙂
Very touching. And you are so not selfish, everyone deserves to be a mommy.
Nothing selfish about it. I hope the universe delivers!
Very sweet post. I imagine it must be very difficult to help children during this time of year. Kudos to you. And you are SO not selfish!
Quite possibly the most beautiful post I've read all week. 🙂 I hope all your wishes come true!
You ARE good enough. There is no question. Believe in yourself. Believe. Believe. Believe. You ARE what you believe.